I having been so depressed since pretty from my pregant begin. Because I m living in a small town, I have no people who have been support me. Only my future husband. I do have my own family but they live over 1,500 miles from here to Montana. I only got a small support from them is being talking on line and sent me package box or mail. There so many thing that I got learn from my sister that already have a girl. She only one in family of mine and his that have been told me about pregant health and safe. My sister know me and She just told me dont dye, dont go tan bed, dont get tattoos or periced druing pregant. I was shocked when I was up vacation in montana last summer to be with my family for 2 weeks. I mean how come i never learn from that anything around in here that where I live right now. Seem I got no support even no one being there for me. Even as no one care about me. I have been want to have me doing a right way while I m pregant but no one has told me anything until I saw my sister in Montana and she just telling me thing. I mean it turn me off and upset me since. I have been staying home mostly since I dont want to being out , Either I dont want to because of being listen to problem thing from people, and being stress me. Even I have no one to hang out that can giving me busy. My future husband have a job that work more than spend time with me. If I having my family live near or right here. I m sure 100% they will support me and making me do something than just do nothing and being upset lots. I mostly upset about my family that I wish I would see them, and having them to teach me or helping me to do something right while I m pregant but no one had been doing that here where I live. IT s really hard. My sister would come here but cant because she got her job in idaho and living with her boyfreind s family until she got a good money to earn to live on her own with boyfriend and a little girl! If I have a sister live here. Oh my I m sure she would like being my mom for a while until after little bit born.

I think that why I got being in depressed and end up stay home and might caused me to ate lots. Even I do walking lots but my back is killing me pain in butt. I mostly ate Green apple, Cheese, Yougat (strawberry w/ Banana), Ice cream Just Val.

The mostly I do at home. keep clean the house, washing dishie, play with my 2 cats, cooking for lunch and dinner for both of us, watching movie, bathing keep me more relax and clean, set up on baby new bedroom w only few thing it will be share with computer room too, go library to use internet and borrow some book, go Po office check mail, rent video place, John work visit little bit, driving, and not much.