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Tuesday, December 13
There is only three weeks left to have a son. Pretty scare. I admit I cant wait to have my own kid but I m just too scare to being stay in hospital for nights that I never have do before. Or staying in a room more than 2 hours. I do ready to have my own kid but I m not ready to have a PAIN! I know after I born I will forget my pain and fousc on baby.
Posted at 01:43 pm by Brinkgurl
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Sunday, December 4
Why am I not let anyone in my labor only just my boyfreind?
I am living in a small town in Missouri. IT called Gainesville. I have pretty much survivor without anyone who live near to help me those thing that I have been done and still thou. I have my family that would be always help and be there for me but they are live so far away more than 1.500 miles from my home. No one of my family and good friend would be get a chance to come to see me in labor to born a new baby. So it s kinda not fair, if I let John s family to watch me being in labor since my family and good freinds can't make it. Because some of my family would not have a enought to afford to come all over way to get here just to watch me labor and met thier new "grandson"/"nephew"/"Great Grandson"/"cousin". My good friends are still in High School and College. But all of them will get a chance to met my new child later whenever I got enought $ to taking airplane to fly all way over to Montana.
Other reason, Why am I not let John's family to be there while I m labor. No one of them have been help me as much like I need some help. They knows that I will be part of thier family since I m going get marry with John. Also I m carry a baby in my tummy that is thier part family too. No one of his family have come visit John and me since. They always all busy and making a excause why they re not coming. They always say I will come see visit you at your home. But never do. Like I dont care. It has been giving me so much stress and in much pain. I m pregant on 9th month now. Like I need some help. No one of them would admit or have a time. I dont know John s family as well as. They all always busy and being snob. His family always have time for other person not us. NOT US- WHY? We are not that kinda bad, we are so much angel. Always being a good at the all. We keep our alive clean. We never do anything bad like it would be againest a law. Other persons are!
So this reason why I am not feel right to have them watch me while i am in labor since I dont know them as well as, They have not been there for us, help us, and much more.
Posted at 03:05 pm by Brinkgurl
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Thursday, November 24
Happy Thankgiving to my Familys, Friends, and Everyone!
Posted at 01:41 pm by Brinkgurl
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Wednesday, December 22
"""""Telling why am I a big fans of Queer?"""""
Before High School, I hate gay,lesbain, and some other of nationals. I alway mean them when I going to hearing school in part of day. Because One day, there a younger teen boy (gay) name Gary was mocking me lots and getting me in trouble lots with teacher of study hall in middle school. I never see Gary with a guy making out or anything else, he telling me that he s gay and coolest gay..................
While I was in High School, at every Monday night "Queer As Folk" on Showtime TV show from 9:00pm to 9:50-10:00pm, At the time my friends and i were boring. I keep change the channel till I saw two men making out, it make me stop change and keep watching whole of time, and my friend too. I start look back in middle school and thinking is that what gay do. Beside I thou gay/lesbain s the mean person not as mean such homosexaul, I start understand what gay and lesbain are. While we watching "Queer As Folk" in back of dorm ILSP. When we see a housemother walk into living room, I change it to Weather channel or Sport channel try keep avoid from housemother know that we have been watching or we'll get in such trouble. Since few months from watch "Queer As Folk", I keep say wish see gay/lesbain in real life.........................................
Druing Spring Break 2003 from high school, I was at home (in Missoula). I got a call from Marissa to meet her at Mall to hang out. When I got there, We went game room to play. Marissa and I playing on motorcycle race, I got a problem with token stuck, I walking up to the desk to looking for a help, I saw there two girls and a boy sit by the desk. A boy stand up and talking me, I were like act show that I cant hear. He start sign so I told him what a problem of token, He went in back room to get a help. The worker come out and helping me of token stuck...............................
In Summer 2003, while my sister Hillary get break from work "Pretzel", we walking to the game room and play. Hillary and I were race on the boat. A boy stand by Hillary and talking to her. When we done with game we stand up, I waiting for Hillary to done talk with a boy. I start looking and notice that boy I know from somewhere, I don't remember. So I start sign to Hillary and asking her how many min left before for her go back to work. A boy start remember me, he start sign to me, and I remmy him. We took a lil bit chat. He telling me that his name s Josh Tryst. Later, Whenever I go Mall to see Hillary as almost everyday and I hang out with Josh lots. He told me that he s gay, It even not bother/scare me because happen in High school. I start love gay/lesbain and collect stuff of Queer As Folk, Rainbow, Gay Pride, and etc of it...............................................
In my first season of college, I took chef class in COT Missoula. I dont know how to start of that, Anyway I meet a woman name Tamiko, and She s in my cook class. We joking each other. She helping me lots in class. Later, we start a table in class where we can cut, chop, kill the food! (LOL) Before the class over of the season. It make me sad taht I might not see her anymore because I didnt pass of that class. We trade email address to keep contact. While Christmas Break, I start think what i did do in first season, I start notice that Tamiko's lesbain but I dont know and dont say about it. In my second season, Fanilly I see Tamiko almost every Monday / Wedensday / Firday. Once she asked me to eat with her and her classmate. Early of Spring, I talked her on MSN Messange, She asked me "do I know that she s lesbain, I told her " I knew and notice it not bother me at the all."
Posted at 07:15 pm by Brinkgurl
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Wednesday, October 20
My real sister Hillary just got her baby last night.
BABY INFO
First Name: Memory
Last Name Randall
Sex: F
Date: Oct 20, 2004
Time: 7:15pm
Height: 19
Weight: 6lbs 15oz
Health: YES VERY
First Labor pain: 7:54am
I woke up at around 630am and running up to hospital by 7am. Hillary Have been there 6am to TONIGHT ll be out. I have been there all day but afternoon went home to check email and grab some lunch food and come back. waiting for baby to come out and being around with her--for her. Hillary have been scare to born a baby, I ask her if she scare, she say yes I dont want to born. I said do u wanna to see baby? she say yes I said have to born, She say I know but it s HURTS! I say I know but I m scare if i m going get one too. Later nothing baby till 6pm so I just leave to Ms. May's sign language class till around 7pm and little after late of 7pm But I speed up when I driving way to hospital Like 60-80mph Guess what I see some police around but didnt pull me out.(whew) so when i enter the hospital and i saw wait room of men in my family memeber, I saw my papa say go to room, Hillary need you now. so I running fast as I can, I arrive and I saw baby half way out of mommy tummy. Hillary were talking to me while the baby were half way so making her clam down and push hard more. I was so happy. Few second later, Pam (Hillary's boyfriend Tony MOM) cry, I look at her and asking why are you cry is there something wrong wtih baby is she die? (Becuase I cant heard at the all what doctor/nurse say). Pam say NO NO NO NO I M HAPPY. I turn left side look at my mom and grandma they cry too I were say oh must be happy either. Few min later I start cry. Baby were so Beautiful! Awww...... When I hold that baby, I sign say I LOVE YOU to her. Hillary start cried. I told Pam, and my mom " you grandma now hahah and being old and grandm at the early age.. HAHAH" many joking to them then they told me You 1# BRATS AUNT too hahah then I shut up already...
Posted at 10:18 pm by Brinkgurl
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Sunday, May 9
I m going to tell about my friend that which are straight and unstraight.
Straight people always meet at mall before do/go anywhere other else. They really had lots of rumor sometime they add make up on the rumors. Really snob and shy around. About 50% open mind. Have lots of aruge about hot chick/guy! They alway making fun of people around them and really not nice to people too. Staying in one place and chatting not walking or travel around like in missoula or town to chatting Just like at one of freind house and chatting or at 4bs/Dennys. Really had few joke and not like to make up the story for to telling people about story and had them laughing thier butt off..
Unstraight people always meet at everywhere and have fun. Really open mind and doing anything than being close mind plus not that much shy/snob. Not really have lots of argue always accpect who peopel are or what they doing. Also have always help people who have some hurt or problem. All of them are always as family support each other and keep in closer contact. Always keep busy doing in missoula as travel in there shopping whatever... Chatting not in one place. Really had lots of funny joke and they do make up the story for to telling. They really love to be together doing something not just least 2 it can be more least 20 people. Love to travel whole the world as groupies.
Posted at 03:35 pm by Brinkgurl
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Friday, February 20
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming
-- WOW -- What a Ride!
Posted at 09:53 pm by Brinkgurl
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Sunday, February 8
I m walking in the someone's bedroom. The bedroom smell Hawaiian breeze. I see lots dirty clothes over the blue floor with cutted pictures. I look up at the woods wall have lots pictures wtih frames of freinds and family. There s bed cover wtih dolphins blanket, blue fur pillows, and books from classes. A small table with lots lotion, make up, and body spray right next to me. The door of bedroom have lots griz poster with freind pictures cover. Window s right between bed and computer desk. on the desk have lots paper, cans of pop, and penicl over any where.
Posted at 09:17 pm by Brinkgurl
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Wednesday, February 4
Walking in this wonderful place, I see the sun, cloud, and blue sky. The air is fresh with the smell of flower. Near the river, I m impressed by the clear water, orange fish and colorful rocks. I feel wonderful and relaxed. Thinking of good times int he paste, I taste apple, cherry,orange, and peach from trees. I love to touch soft bear cubs.
Posted at 09:17 pm by Brinkgurl
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Friday, January 30
 Really impressed me those cow can swim like Dolphins does LOL!
Posted at 01:38 pm by Brinkgurl
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